appellatives

falling sick.


many things happening now and i dont have enough time.

to make matters worse im flying to freaking taiwan in 2 weeks.

save me.
 

hate saying goodbyes. i mean who does right.

well rena min shu. you all take care over in the uk yeah.




well over the past 2 weeks much has happened. gemini is over, so are my exams. so i guess all that's left now are CSB, marksmanship and ROC. 3 more long months baby.

in other news they finally semi-decided on the comms ball date.
either 20/21st. hopefully at st regis. sucks i hate this part cause it's the part where the guy has to find a date.
also the part where dhil will slap me for complaining cause she knows my problem is that i'm just too picky.

but i mean it's COMMS BALL man. i have never (and probably will never) go for any dinner that is as formal as it ever again.
hmm...maybe i exaggerate.

well yeah i wanna get an itouch. any advice?

ok so like moving on from yesterday's drama, no longer as homophobic.
though aaron happily told me that there's this senior he had that just had a sex change and his/her name is now 'jared'

hmmm.


well we should always leave people to their own prerogatives. though the coincidences are really uncanny sometimes.

so anyway it feels great to actually be at home on a monday.
although like it's gonna be the worst outfield exercise so far this week. hopfully i survive =/

nothing much to add. though i must say that i really hate it that my network always seems to love planning events on the same days.

12sept - cousin's 21st,  kelly and jt's (floorball) bday dinner, 24ths stayover in school.


help lah.


oh well. maybe things will work out.
 time to go.
bye world.


ps: happy birthday kelly and JT! hope you two have a blast today.
 

while the night before was probably one of the craziest yet fun nights, i must admit that this afternoon greeted me with much horror.

ok so here goes. there i am minding my own business when out of the blue some unknown email contact adds me. thinking it's a friend i accept. so here's what happened. (btw i blocked the email so save him some privacy)



so ok after that i thought ok never mind just block the fella and not do anything more about it. move on. but then next thing i know he is talking to me on freaking facebook chat! like here:

realised i have more time than i actually thought i did so here goes an entry.

the cycle repeats itself again. though this time i sincerely hope i get to come out on friday..
oh well final theory test on sat (5th) morning. and i'm definitely gonna fail it.
havent had any time to study for it.
i'm still waiting for life to pick up. but it's not really changing much.

maybe after October things will get better. haha but that, is still a long long way to go.
plus i still have my big event in dec to worry about.
oh well.

today was really very laid back. just did close to nothing.
which reminds me that i still have a costume to look for and a gift to make.
screwed.


not
enough
sleep.

but well it was worth it.
time's up. gtg.

was supposed to meet the guys (floorball) at 9am for soccer.
then i decided that i'll just drop by to say hi cause i have driving at 1130.
it's 1015 now and i think i might not be able to do either. lol

i hate being a procrastinator sometimes.



talked to xavier last night. was nice talking to him after a long while and even though we never were close to begin with.
well if there's one thing i've concluded, it's that it is about time i start re-vamping and reconstructing.

sometimes in order to change something, you gotta break it down, then build it up all over again.
the former has already happened.
 

ever wondered how it feels like when
you know that you shouldn't see something, yet you still click the link,
and to your disgust you see something that really upsets you and turns you off

quite fucked up lah. but yeah damn dumb too. so lesson learnt is that ignorance is bliss.


was reflecting about stuff and i realise that i really got a pathetic life now.
simply put, mon to fri in camp, sat sun like just really do nothing but spend it with yourself cause
a) you're too damn tired; or
b) all your friends are either in uni already, or confined cause of guard duty.

but i'm getting used to it (at least that's what i convince myself).
one day in the future i'll (hopefully) commission. and when that day comes i'll start to find my life back.
i'll be less restricted and occupied.

till then i'll just sit here and be a sour boy. lol.



well other than that the week went pretty fine. tauros was pretty alright for my syndicate and the whole laptop issue is resolved. this coupled with the ippt clearance thing 2 weeks ago only means one thing.

that things are looking up now, so there actually shouldn't be any reason that i'm feeling this down.

so today started much better. kinda had enoug sleep for the first time (could use somemore though)

but anyway so like i went up online just to try my luck again and to my amazement i finally managed top book a slot for my FINAL THEORY TEST. sigh i was almost resigned to going down and looking for that guy man. i guess now i got an extra hour here to do nothing and just sit on the sofa.
... hmmm...


so anwyay i really hope things get better from here on out. things have rarely gone my way since like march the twenty-something. (cant remember) but point being come dec 19  i really really hope that all this shit will be left behind.



i encountered a weird incident this week. think it was on thurs. it really struck me that no matter how much you think you know someone, there'll always me more of that person that you don't know about, either because they've changed as a person, or because you just never really knew them at all.
 

not really proud to say this but day by day with these kinda incidences, the stuff i see about her on facebook, it really starts to wake me up and tell me how badly i've been blinded, how much i never knew in the first place. it's great to have friends to talk things through with, friends who tell me the dirty secrets about her that i never knew, friends who tell me to shut the fuck up, forget her and move on, friends who tell me about the things she done behind my back that i really didnt know about.

don't get me wrong, i'm not still in love with her and obsessed about her and shit. it is just that after spending 3 yrs of your life with someone, you're bound to always have a tad of feelings for her. maybe its just me. maybe i value these kinda things too much. but i guess it's my own fault that i take relationships and love seriously now. so bite me.

well thank God for friends, for dhil, SC friends, army friends (who surprisingly havent managed to find this place yet) , to yc kx floorball guys.


haha i have no idea how come this post suddenly came back to talk about her. lol. i think it got kinda twisted from the point where i talked about the weird incident i encountered on thurs. oh well. on the brighter side i find myself finally feeling nothing as i'm typing this nor as i think about it. so i guess i'm alright now.

things will get better =)

yesterday's homecoming was really nice. good to see so many old friends and just enjoy ourselves.


new phase of life so must have new layout too, haha

ok i'm off to camp now, hence the title. sigh see you guys in 6 days, or 5 hopefully.